Current events

Ok ok, i know i have not been updating my DIVA blog. so okay guys here it is. as you know I am kinda busy so bla bla bla....no more excuses...anyways...

What should i talk about? ummmmm, let us start with the bad news first. I got a few of my friends, close and new, acquaintances and colleagues who recently just broke up with their partner over various reasons. gosh, how i hate breaking ups.. who does like it anyway? none of us, definitely NONE OF US. but in the malay proverb, there is a saying that says "setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan". yeah, i guess that the reality of life, just like "yang hidup pasti akan mati suatu hari nanti". ok, fine ....

i remembered that my last break up with Mr M was a bad one for me. Me and him, I think was the last relationship i had which ended like 6 good years ago. We broke up for reasons that was beyond our control and various other factors to be honest and it did took me some time to accept that sometimes there are things in life we cannot control. there is in fact a higher power above us that we called "god" who in fact loves us unconditionally which sometimes in life we tend to be ignorant and lupa akan kehadirannya. thus from that, my believe in god’s FATE goes stronger as days goes by as qada and qadar has already been written for us which reasons for all that has happened to us, we everyday wish we know.

a fren i just knew broke up last january after 8 years of relationship and i think honestly he still has not got over her for the sole reason that he still has feelings for her despite what she did to him. i somehow totally understand that. When you go through a break up and you still love the other party, then it is going to be harder for you to move on. That is definitely, a GUARANTEE. But then, it is OKAY.

WE cannot control our feelings inside. WE are not like some computer software or files where our feelings which are stored inside our heart and/or memory can be easily be deleted by a click of a button. WE need time to heal. WE need time to love someone and WE surely need time to loose the same feeling that we have inside. totally understandable, totally logic! the next question, how long might that be? the answer is, only GOD knows! only WE know. when we feel ready, when god thinks we are ready, then God will show us the way though this.

Sometimes people break ups for reasons that only known to the person who called up the breaking up part. then it would be the job of the other party to comprehend, to do due diligence on the relationship to check on what the hell that he/she did wrong, to accept that he/she did something wrong, then to query and impose 1000 questions on the history of the relationship and coax the person who called up the breaking part to consider not to break up and then professed love profusely and at the end it still happens...why? i would say for the simple majority reason for any breakups, which is, when one doesn’t love the other anymore, they tend to let go of you and let you out from their life. It is as simple as that and we are then left to pick up the pieces one by one right after that.

Break ups are never easy. There was so much of feelings put and mixed into it; hope, love, care, faith, believe, heart, sacrifices, loyalty, understanding, pain, hurt, time and many more that was put in something that we called a relationship. But takpe, i always believe things happens for a reason....

on the good news, one of our good friend recently has joined the matrimony club. Congratulations to Ms O and Mr A for the recent tie the knot ceremony. Semoga bahagia ke akhir hayat and may god bless this marriage and us all!

so to all readers out there, single, plural, couple, married, or just recently gone through break ups, here is a song to share....(shay this one is for us)


KAER - IZINKAN AKU PERGI

Lagu: Azlan Abu Hassan

Lirik: Sulu Sarawak

Sinaran mata
Cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam
Memori semalam

Tinggal segala cinta
Tiada kembalinya
Lama dikasih kita
Kau bawa bersama

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

(Korus)
Pergilah rinduku
Hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung
Derita dikalbuku

Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku

Tersemat dijiwa
Setia bersamanya
Cinta murni berdua
Beribu teguhnya

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

(Ulang korus)

Maafkan aku duhai kasih
Izinkan ku pergi