FULL HOUSE

'Full House' is my favourite korean drama of all time, i know some would say i like it so much as Rain is in it, but hahahahha okay am guilty at that, but at the same time it is a very entertaining and sweet story. very simple story line to begin with but it end up beautifully and the song in it are amazing. of course there are some teary moments where Rain hurt the gurl badly in there and trying not to disclose his feelings to her.

the moral of the story is- Be HONEST with your feelings to another. if you like a person, then tell her or him. something amazing might happen, who knows eh? and also, when it comes to love, its already a blessing that you have the love inside you for that sumone, like god open up your heart to love sumone, but if its not reciprocate then its okay, one cannot force love. if that sumone reciprocate then its a double blessing. if not, then its okay...maybe its not meant to be. ;-)

so here is one of my favourite song in Full House to share with you guys! enjoyssss uollss!!

it's just wednesday???

gosh i look at the calender right in front of me and thought, omg, its already May the 30th!!! how time flies eh? soon it will be august and then december and the next thing you know, we are preparing for the new year's celebration. *SIGH*

what to do? soon enuff it will be my birthday. im sad and happy when it comes to birthday, any birthday for that matter. the reason y, shall be revealed sumwhere in august this year...so tunggu!!!

the pak guard said "cantik cik hari ni" when i passed him while walking towards the lift. i didnt manage to comb my hair properly this morning and am just wearing sandals due to my back pain. oh well! me politely replied, thank you and a smile.

so as ive just learn how to paste clips such as youtube, so here it is, one of my fav korean videoclips, i just love it! so am sharing this with you guys today...aja aja fighting!

Monday Blues

helo peeps its monday again...how come i felt that last weekend was a short one indeed? maybe i need more rest.

back pains is here again....*SIGH* feel like crying...its so not my day. i also glued to my chair the whole day and the double 17 inches computer screen trying to read all this documents for our 4 new funds... again i feel like crying! words become blurry and the lines seems endless...then by 6pm, it starting not to make any sense, i lost interest, and feel like going home. suddenly, 'home' by chris daughtry is at the back of my mind. *SIGH*

was listening to "i'll stand by you" by carrie underwood like a zillion times last nite before i dozed off. dont ask y, i also dont know.

shayna zaid was okay MINUS the weird opening act by her friend, as chai had said this morning, not really the bomb..depends wat kind of music u dig into la at the end of the day. i can see her passion in her music as she wrote most of it...which i think 'wow'. very talented i gave her that.

love bangsar village II..love it love it love it! love ms read..i think its gonna be the next hang out place for me and friends...

chocopot, adik mossimo dutti tegur me at berjaya, he remembered my face and said "jangan lupa datang ye i serve u personally". he is cute jugak la i think ;-) suk la dia.

but as a whole, me in love with blanco!!! suk suk suk!!!!!!

also, please check out nidji, i think they are the next group that will be a hit after peter pan. i think they already are.

bosan la...

SHAYNA ZAID

TGIF!!! Finally!!!! hhhmmmm, Am going to start my weekend by going to Shayna Zaid's gig at alexis today with my mates. sorry, no gym class by demand!!! sabar je!!! i didnt go at all this week. wat a shame!!!but for tonite. am looking forward to it!!! yayayayyaya!!! hope that it will be great...have to be there on time, tho im still here at the office at this hour -6.45pm.

anyways love this song...so the song for today by shayna zaid tajuknya Take Your Time...


Everybody needs a little time to heal a broken heart
Don't apologize, I've been there
It may take a month or two, or years to finally say goodbye
to your memories of him..

Just take your time
And dry your eyes, please..
Take your time, my dear..
Take your time
And dry your eyes
Please take your time, I'm here...

Don't let your mind go running wild
He's not worth your time.. think you all the things he's done
Don't justify to satisfy your thoughts of how it could've been
It was never meant to be...

Just take your time
And dry your eyes, please..
Take your time, my dear, my dear
Please take your time
And dry your cryin' eyes
Just take your time, I'm here...

It's just a chapter in your life
And it's time to turn the page
Life's too short to live in the past
It's time to make that change
Make that change..

Take your time
And dry those eyes, please..
Just take your time, my dear..
Please take your time
And dry those eyes of yours
Please take your time, I'm here...

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND PEEPS!!!!

the thing we call "friendship"

an old friend actually rang me this morning. the conversation, as follows:-

Mr. R: hey how are you? where were you yesterday? (i left my mobile at my colleague's table after a heaty discussion. saw that Mr.R missed call me for 5 times already, gave him a call from my office's number but he didnt picked up. later i learnt that he purposely didnt pick it up as he thought i would be a sales lady trying to sell some holiday vouchers, hhahaha, anyways...)

pretty: at work, am fine thanks, how are u?

Mr. R: i am fine, just wondering how u are. i dreamt abt you twice and i was worried and thought of giving you a call.

pretty: (how sweet i think ;-) )oh, im okay, things are the same and stuff...

so then we continue talking abt other general stuff bla bla bla. its amazing that he still manage to keep in touch with me after all this years. we have been friends since Form 1. we lost contact here and there but then we manage to meet up sumhow 3 or 4 years ago and yeah been friends again till now. he would call me at least once a month just to say hi.

actually i dont know where am going with this. let's focus.

so maybe what i am saying is that what we do in life lies by the choices we make. Mr. R in high school was chasing after me like crazy. love letters, cards, chocolates under your desk everyday kinda thing, such a sweety. for a Form 1 student, he sure had a lot of money to spent on me. but we always remain friends as "love" insist to hide sumwhere gods knows where until later on in my late teens. but he remain to be a friend up till now, him living happily with his wife and 2 kids. this makes me happy as im happy for him.

what am getting at is, when we talk about friendship, the topic at hand is so wide and universal. there are new and old friends. but what makes one a good friend? is it the time factor? or is it the degree of chemistry and how you click with the other person?...hmmmm...or birds of the same feathers flock together kinda thing? or common interest works every time? ;-) or the respect, the love, the appreciantion and understanding that each share and instill in one's self?

this brings back to what happened between me and Mr. Z. me and Mr. z has been friends for like let me count, since 12 or 13 years ago. seems ancient even. he is my boo.we got really close perhaps since i got back in 2002 time. but we fell out last september and it left me sad and i admit, it did bothers me a lot. but then ive learnt to accept the fact that sumtimes things just happened. you cannot force people to share the same views as you do. sumtimes people put their ego too much on the line. there are also people out there who always misunderstood the intention of others despite after knowing us and be close with us for years. there are people out there who i think doesnt value friendship in the right sense, selfish and only think abt whos right and whos wrong. its all about pointing fingers to them. people who got bruised for the smallest things and forget what actually matters. people who throw "care and friendship" back to your face.


friends told me "dah la pretty, let it go". i wish i can. i didnt let it go but ive accepted it. ive done wat i can. Mr. Z promised to arrange a meeting to apologize to the significant people but still until to day, there is no news. left me wonder of what was his real feelings and what was he thinking towards the issue that we had during our last conversation at Mr. J and Mrs J's wedding. did he mean what he said ? or is it am hoping too much? does our friendship means so little? doesnt he care abt me anymore? did we have sumthing special? arent we close enuff for you to let your ego aside for the sake of our friendship? does it take that much effort to talk it over coffee and pour our hearts out about the issues outstanding? didnt you owe me that much? was i wrong? should i say sorry for things that i dont think that i do wrong? dont you respect me enuff to give and to treat me with decency and not to ignore me ? do we not reach that "comfort level" where we can say whatever to each other without feeling uncomfortable? dont you ever CARE?

some friends or people just shut down. total shut down, they might have problems or reasons, god knows wat, they may even be angry at us for some reason or another, but they just shut down. they wont talk abt it, but then later you receive a note of goodbye or even SMS without any explanation attached. blink! blink! or some friends got angry at you, ignore you for like days months watever, then would call you for a coffe and chat along like nothing happened. eeerrrr??? helow???? MR. Z is so have to do full explanation of his behaviour if he wants to be my friend again!


fyi, i lost many friends over the years. some i purposely delete from my list of frens, some i lost from this kinda event. some i dont think deserves to be even called a fren, no need to mention la why. so it sadden me when things like that happens. oh well! i think ive been patient way too much over some things, to people's actions and behaviour nowadays.


but am also happy as i have changed a lot too during the years. i think i manage to keep good friends around me. people that i can share my laugher as well as tears. i discard friends who are not worth my time. i have changed from a hot tempered person to more laid back and try to open my circle of friends and not to be rigid on that, (tho the result as fas as i know doesnt look too good so far) i had become more penyabar and do more things that i like to do. i do gym to brush my social skills (hahahhahaha) as well of keeping myself healthy and i read books to fill my time.

sumtimes when i lie on my bed at nite listening to my baby i just could laugh my heads off and/or at times, i can actually just gelengkan kepala berkali kali wondering why things happened the way they were. sumtimes the questions of why me or what the F***, or wat the hell? comes about. but yeah at times we just wonder how when where or why.

so at this moment of minor confusion and disbelief about certain things that people said abt me and things that happened, i listen to the song "kumohon" by sheila majid over and over again recently. this songs whenever i am down, would be one of the song that i would listen to before i go to sleep with a silent prayer to God to give me the strength to change the things that i can change and for me to accept the things that i cannot control and change.

so my song for today that i wana share is kumohon as follows:-

Ku Mohon
Artist: Sheila Majid

Setiap hari kumohon
Agar Kau sentiasa
Memberiku ketenangan dalam hati... kekuatan
Menempuh segala dugaan yang mencabar ini
Pasti punya ertinya

Engkau beriku harapan
Menjawab segala persoalan
Hadapi semua dengan tenang
Dengan merasa kesyukuran
Ku doa Kau selalu
Mengawasai gerak-geriku
Berkatilah ku penuh rahmat dari Mu

Oh Tuhan terangkan hati dalam sanubariku
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadamu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu

Ada kalanya ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Hancur berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku
Melalui semua itu... Ooh...
Kuatkanlah
Cekalkanlah diriku

Curahkanlah nikmat Mu pada hidupku

Y OH Y!!!!

i dont know what is it abt us women and our monthly visits from our frens call the "period". for me, the first day always feels like the first time. not to mention the pain that comes with it. i really really 1000x envy those women who doesnt feel any cramps or pain during this period of the month. Lucky bitch/es!

and men sometimes DO NOT understand our mood swings and emotions turmoil that we women have to face pre this period a.k.a. "pms-pre-menstrual sydrome". it is something that we cannot control, reduce or leave it at home when we go to work, or deposit it to some banks or throw it in the river. we have it in us permanently, FOREVER. unfortunately. so guys, one advice, JUST DEAL WITH IT!!!

i seriously sometimes think that man can also have their "period". god knows when, why or how. they seriously dont have the hormones to start with. tho we rely on the crap thing "men comes from Mars and women comes from Venus" thing to explain why things happens the way they are, they claim they have it to. nonsense, absolutely bullocks!!! men find this as an excuse to be acting shit! its crap, enuff said!

on the other note, current events makes me realised that some of us are lacking some decency and respect in life. maybe this is due to our upringing, or environment or maybe just our behaviour in our daily life or simply ego bruised factor. like this morning on my way to work, i already gave the signal before i turned sweetly to the left, y is it the 'Man' driver behind me have to honked ? cant u see my F****** signal!!!! *sigh*.

at another scenario, it made me smile if when entering into any bulding which one have to push the door, a guy in front of you would hold the door for you for abt maybe 3 seconds so that you can pass through. simple simple things in life. or as in the LRT/buses/trains/watever, to give another your precious seat as the women next to you is holding like 10 kilos of god kows wat or preggers for that matter. where is our decency? where is our passion for simple non-complicated & logical life? where? simply gone to the drain perhaps.

at the end of the day, why we have to care abt all of this? why do i have to ask this gurl looking sick after the Force of Nature's concert last year whether she is fine or not eventho she look like she going to collapse any second while holding the door of her car for dear life? why do i have to BOTHER? why bother offer help to another in need when one doesnt want to be helped? why bother? why we bother to advise when one which is being advised nodded yeah yeah yeah and the next thing you know, get into trouble again the very next day. WHY? WHY we even BOTHER? why we bother to ask "how are you" to another when the recipient doesnt even care to ask you the same. why bother?

is it our nature, is it biological, or is it our human instict, or is it sumthing that we just have in us? i believe some of the lessons are not in books, so we dont learn it in school. some we adapt from our daily lives, some from our experiences through out the years, and some we may have gain from our parents and friends. its not very technical, its very simple, to be civil and have that respect towards others.

its good to care about others. i still stand on this ground firmly. your family your friends and other love ones. but i do pray to God that God would let and allow me and my friends to care for people that deserves to be cared about and love others who deserves to be loved by me/us because simply for the reason that i/we would be hurt if its otherwise. too many tears had been shed. simply too many.

occay enuff for drama, read the newspaper today, government staff got their pay rise!!!! yayayaya, am happy for my parents and others malaysian too!!! i hope that the economy and the share market are better this year too!!!

to all my friends, have a good day today! *HUG*

AF SEASON 5 NEW WINNER & SATURDAY OUTING

congratulations to Mila the new AF winner which i think deserves it most amongst the finalist. who would guess that at the end of the day she would bagged the title when halfway through the programme i believe dafi would win due to his cutie and good looks. but again for MILA, good for you, at last people voted for talent instead of god knows wat. for aznil, you are the best!

invited some close frens for a HIGH TEA at MO which is long overdue. love the cakes, sandwiches as well as the scones. MBA suggested the place as he always a patron for meetings with clients and highly recommended the scones. i was however a tiny weeny late and was actually listening to my baby on the bed like i normally spent my saturday when MBA rang me to ask where i am. i had never in my life got ready that quick and went out with such minimal makeup for a high tea. but nevertheless, i think i looked superb! MBA looked handsome as always (although irritating), Mr. Shay the Sway was busy showing off his biceps while MBF was busy taking pictures. MBF looked gorgeous as usual with a black dress which she can directly hit the clubs after the tea session.

at the end of the day, i believe that the place or the food does matters but it always comes down to the company you keep and have that means the most. thank you peeps for attending, yayayayyaay!!! really had a great time!

to all my friends and viewers, may this year bring a lot of good luck, success and happiness to ALL of us! may our friendship gets stronger and more colourful each day.

MY FAIR LADY

i went to watched "MY FAIR LADY" at the Plenary Hall at KL Convention Centre with MBF. met MBF at MNG and she looked very sexy with her black attire and i look like a mess after a 'hard' day at work. a bit of 'sesat' happened in order to find the place, hahahhaah nuthing new to me i suppose. however, my review on it was that it was definitely entertaining and i recommend it for you guys. its hillarious and fun without being over the top! fun fun fun! thank u very much to Mr. S for sponsoring us the tickets and for the good seats! we were like on the 9th or the 10th row from the front and the orchestra was amazing...love it love it love it!!! but sumhow malim bongsu play that i watched last month lead hero still 'menjadi pujaan hatiku'! mwhahahahahahhah!!!

on the other note, recent news that i heard abt some issues still also left me in shocked. hang in there BABE!!!! me love you long time!!!

went to take module 9 exam today and gosh i am so not supise if i flunked the said paper!!! oh well!!! maybe asset management is not for me ;(

i need to chill and have fun, thank god the weekend is coming!!! cant wait for the final of AF. (yeah yeah yeah i know). but wat to do am a fan tho not an avid one to be sure. go MILA!!!! u can do it!!!

we so gonna miss Aznil next year, i wonder who is the next MC...errr dont tell me AC mizal? or let me see, Awal??? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

fingers crossed!!!!

rain rain rain

rain's pepsi ad *sigh*

Home

i have this song in my baby now and recently had watched the videoclip, me love him, i think he is a good singer. so guys, this is my song of the week and i dedicate this to you peeps...enjoy....


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Home Daughtry lyrics
Artist: Daughtry
Album: Daughtry
Year: 2006

"Home"

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, it makes true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

so which place do u call 'home'?

This happened yesterday!

Me just came back from lunch at nasi ayam Bukit Bintang (nasi separuh occay) and i was catwalking towards the lift and i saw this guard which i dread. praying intensely that my invicible mode just like the heroes series works i silently looked down....not..and the following conversation took place:-

Guard: helo ape kabar
me: ok am ok.
Guard: baru lunch ker?
Me: ahah
Guard: lunch kat mana?
ME: Bukit Bintang ( i hope by now u can see that i am just answering questions up to this point till the end of the conversation)
guard: you dari sarawak ker?
Me: (flabbergasted look) tak.
Guard:dari santubong ker?
Me: huh Santubong???
Guard: ye la you macam puteri santubong. (at that point of time i wish that the floor would swallow me)
then the lift open and me, him and 3 others went in...
Guard:you dari CMS kan?
Me: ya,
Guard: CMS tu aper?
Me: Cahaya Mata Sarawak
Guard: oooooo i ingatkan Cahya Mata Saya
( at that point of time seriously seriously )
Guard: tu la i perasan orang2 kerja di CMS cantik cantik belaka macam orang sebelah saya ni (mind u that the 3 other people were still there in the lift)
Me: occay!
then lift opened and the 3 people went out
Guard: lunch mana tadi
Me: Bukit Bintang
Guard: oh u pernah pergi ke restoran Ain dekat Eon bank
Me: Tak pernah
guard: ye ker? nanti next week kita pergi ye i belanja...
Me: errrrrrr (and the lift opened and i exited quickly with my heels and not looking back though i can still hear him saying goodbye and see u soon wishes)

yeah seriously...i have this thing with guards and cabbies!!! nerbs...
this is our curse of being pretty. alhamdullilah to god!

Its' my Lee's birthday!!!

Happy 24th Birthday bro!!! i love you always!!!!

Song of Last Week

MBA recently dwnloaded this to my baby last week before Kuantan trip and i love it love it love it, has always love craig david as he is a unique singer from my point of view though a bit vain, oh well dont we all? so if you guys have time pls check out the song and to all lovers out there, this one is for you!



CRAIG DAVID LYRICS

"Unbelievable"
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

Current events

Ok ok, i know i have not been updating my DIVA blog. so okay guys here it is. as you know I am kinda busy so bla bla bla....no more excuses...anyways...

What should i talk about? ummmmm, let us start with the bad news first. I got a few of my friends, close and new, acquaintances and colleagues who recently just broke up with their partner over various reasons. gosh, how i hate breaking ups.. who does like it anyway? none of us, definitely NONE OF US. but in the malay proverb, there is a saying that says "setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan". yeah, i guess that the reality of life, just like "yang hidup pasti akan mati suatu hari nanti". ok, fine ....

i remembered that my last break up with Mr M was a bad one for me. Me and him, I think was the last relationship i had which ended like 6 good years ago. We broke up for reasons that was beyond our control and various other factors to be honest and it did took me some time to accept that sometimes there are things in life we cannot control. there is in fact a higher power above us that we called "god" who in fact loves us unconditionally which sometimes in life we tend to be ignorant and lupa akan kehadirannya. thus from that, my believe in god’s FATE goes stronger as days goes by as qada and qadar has already been written for us which reasons for all that has happened to us, we everyday wish we know.

a fren i just knew broke up last january after 8 years of relationship and i think honestly he still has not got over her for the sole reason that he still has feelings for her despite what she did to him. i somehow totally understand that. When you go through a break up and you still love the other party, then it is going to be harder for you to move on. That is definitely, a GUARANTEE. But then, it is OKAY.

WE cannot control our feelings inside. WE are not like some computer software or files where our feelings which are stored inside our heart and/or memory can be easily be deleted by a click of a button. WE need time to heal. WE need time to love someone and WE surely need time to loose the same feeling that we have inside. totally understandable, totally logic! the next question, how long might that be? the answer is, only GOD knows! only WE know. when we feel ready, when god thinks we are ready, then God will show us the way though this.

Sometimes people break ups for reasons that only known to the person who called up the breaking up part. then it would be the job of the other party to comprehend, to do due diligence on the relationship to check on what the hell that he/she did wrong, to accept that he/she did something wrong, then to query and impose 1000 questions on the history of the relationship and coax the person who called up the breaking part to consider not to break up and then professed love profusely and at the end it still happens...why? i would say for the simple majority reason for any breakups, which is, when one doesn’t love the other anymore, they tend to let go of you and let you out from their life. It is as simple as that and we are then left to pick up the pieces one by one right after that.

Break ups are never easy. There was so much of feelings put and mixed into it; hope, love, care, faith, believe, heart, sacrifices, loyalty, understanding, pain, hurt, time and many more that was put in something that we called a relationship. But takpe, i always believe things happens for a reason....

on the good news, one of our good friend recently has joined the matrimony club. Congratulations to Ms O and Mr A for the recent tie the knot ceremony. Semoga bahagia ke akhir hayat and may god bless this marriage and us all!

so to all readers out there, single, plural, couple, married, or just recently gone through break ups, here is a song to share....(shay this one is for us)


KAER - IZINKAN AKU PERGI

Lagu: Azlan Abu Hassan

Lirik: Sulu Sarawak

Sinaran mata
Cerita segalanya
Duka lara terpendam
Memori semalam

Tinggal segala cinta
Tiada kembalinya
Lama dikasih kita
Kau bawa bersama

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

(Korus)
Pergilah rinduku
Hilangkan dirimu
Tak sanggup menanggung
Derita dikalbuku

Pergilah sayangku
Bermula semula
Semangat cintaku
Membara kerana dia
Tiada niatku

Tersemat dijiwa
Setia bersamanya
Cinta murni berdua
Beribu teguhnya

Mimpi indah mekar
Saat cinta bersemi
Sedetik asmara syurga
Selamanya

(Ulang korus)

Maafkan aku duhai kasih
Izinkan ku pergi